Beyond the Coin
"The Apologist's Evening Prayer."
From all my lame defeats and oh! much more
From all the victories that I seemed to score;
From cleverness shot forth on Thy behalf
At which, while angels weep, the audience laugh;
From all my proofs of Thy divinity,
Thou, who wouldst give no sign, deliver me.
Thoughts are but coins. Let me not trust, instead
Of Thee, their thin-worn image of Thy head.
From all my thoughts, even from my thoughts of Thee,
O thou fair Silence, fall, and set me free.
Lord of the narrow gate and the needle's eye,
Take from me all my trumpery lest I die. (1)
For the rationalist or the TJ as defined by Myers Briggs, it is easy for our thoughts to replace the reality of God just as these words I write may be the replacement for the quality of relationship that I ought to have with God. I may think of God but if there lacks the connection between the mind and the heart then it causes a pride to think we have it figured out. I use "It" as the general term for everything there needs to be known about existence from myself to the entirety of existence both subjectively and objectively.
As much as we wrestle with our thoughts of the Divine to understand and take one step closer to God, without the recognition that we need to allow these thoughts to transform into the intangible quality that transcends our thoughts whereby, only can we truly experience and enter into God's presence. Our thoughts along with any other form of expression in thought or some other means are only the means, the vehicle if you will, to take us to that place where we are able to meet God. The rest is up to the Will and the Desire to allow the Divine to encounter us that leaves us forever changed, removing what we once thought we knew how to get there and leaves us in awe and changed, not become more fearful; rather, more humbled and amazed at the Divine Love that embraced Death to give us Life.
Isaiah 6.